无聊又悲伤的心情,,,

无聊的时候我都会做什么呢？

说真的~ 有时我自己都不知道呢~ 不过最近很像知道了一点~

那就是~ 无聊的时候~ 我会特别的去听歌~ 伤心的歌~

为什么会听伤心的歌呢？

我想啊~

可能是因为无聊没事做的时候会想起以前伤心的事情~

还有啊~

听着伤心的歌的时候哦~

脑里就很快的有很多伤心的字~

当然啦~

我会把这些伤心的字写在facebook里~

写在facebook里不是要让别人知道我的痛苦~

是希望那天那个伤害我最深的人会看到~

希望那个人会知道自己做了什么~

希望····

会回到以前一样~

一个朋友~

伤害我最深的人~

如果你要看到这些我写的字~

我希望你不要误会~

我是真的很想在跟你做朋友~

因为我心里面最痛又让我最后悔的就是不能再是你的朋友了~

不要担心,,,

不管我受到多大的伤害~

不管我的心痛到多少~

不管我怎样压制我的痛苦~

你们都不要担心~

因为我过得很好~

我的身边有很多朋友~

我的身边也有

干哥

干姐

干弟

干妹

在我后面推我一把~

所以如果你们看到我有割手的话~

不要当心~

因为有时我不想烦你们~

我就割了自己的手~

也让我记得痛苦是怎样的~

Demi Lovato - Skyscraper,,,

This song is for those who lose their hope~ I hope that you'll get your hope back~

Picture & Photo,,,

I love to take photo about the weather~

The blue sky~

The smile on everyone faces~

Anything!

I believe in one thing~

A picture/photo mean something~

The moment that you capture it~

Is the moment you live it~

What I mean is don't care what you take in your picture~

Remember just one thing!

That is~

It'll always be a part in your life~

Maybe my mind is too old to say this kind of thing~

But I hope that you guys will understand it~

Final thing~!

Do keep a picture somewhere with you~

Keep a picture about happy times~

Beautiful places~

Your best friend~

Your family~

And even the superstar that you like~

So that everytime when you feel down~

Take a look at it and try to feel stress-free~

To myself~

I'm hoping on to keep one picture that I should do long ago~

Shhhhhh~ It's a secret~

I can't tell~

Hope what I've said will clear up your mind~

Im Sorry,,,

I'm sorry....

Sorry for everything that I ever done~

I just hope that you will know~

If you can't stand it anymore~

Just cry it out load~

I know that I act like I don't care about anything~

But I do care~

Even thought I wanted to give you everything~

But I know that I can't~

I did left my heart with you~

But at the back of my heart~

There's still a dark shadow that never want to go off~

I just wish that I can do something to make it up to you~

But all that I can say to you

Just a word

"Sorry"

I know that one word cannot change a thing~

But I want you to know!

Your place in my heart will never change too~

Even if I'll hate you in the future~

You'll always stay a place in my heart!

朋友,,,

现在我才知道

为什么

我自己会想我没有一个好朋友~

这是因为

我觉得我融不进我的朋友~

在班的时候

当班很吵的时候

我突然就会看看我周围···

这算是我的怀习惯吧~

每次我看看我的周围的时候~

我就会看到朋友在一起

说话

玩耍

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那时候~

我心里面就想~

“好好噢~”

“每个人在班都有很好的朋友~”

然后我又会在想~

“如果我过去跟他们玩的话”

“他们一定会觉得我很无聊~”

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我会这样想可能是因为

我自己没有自信吧~

也有可能

是我自己忽冷忽热~

根有可能是

因为我怕~

怕什么？

怕如果我有好朋友的话~

我的好朋友有一天会离开~

呵呵~ 说来说去都是我不好哦~

人家会恨我也是因该的·········

I Love You! 我爱你！,,,

呵呵呵~

不知道我是这么了~

现在我很想跟每个人说！

我爱你们！！！！

怕了等下人家会以为

我是。。。

神经病！

管他们的！

嘴巴是我的！

那我就在这里跟你们说！

我！爱！你！们！

x)

希望你懂,,,

每个人有自己需要走的路，我也开始了我自己的路。
你呢？还站在原地不动吗？

就算我跑的再快！也不可能跑到你的身边的！
就算你花再多的心！我也给不了你什么~

不用多说了~

真的很对不起~

走了再走~没想到最后还是会走到你的身边去~
不是因为爱着你~是因为~
我知道如果我停住了~就等于我死了~

不是我在多想什么~是你还不懂我~

你难道就不能消委来了解这四年的痛苦吗？

朋友难道也不能再当了吗？

是我想太多了~

够了~不管我在怎么想都只是在浪费我自己的力气而已~

不管我再写还是再写我有多痛~你也不会懂的~因为你根本都看不到​我在写什么~

我只能说遇见你是我最幸福又最痛苦的事情了~
我也想跟你说谢谢~
如果不是遇见你的话~
我因该还不懂什么是‘爱情’什么是‘痛苦’什么事‘放弃’跟‘遗​忘’~

Autumn In My Heart!,,,

Autumn In My Heart.....

Do you guys remember this Korean Drama?

This drama is already been out for so many years already~

The story is about Family, Brother and Sister, Love....

In my blog~

The first song that you listen is this drama ost~

I cried after I listen to that song~

It's been a long time since I listen to that song~

That's why I cried~

Don't say me stupid for crying~

If you know the story about this drama~

I'm sure that you'll cry too~

It's not too late too!

Try to search the net for this drama and watch it!

Wish you luck!

Music forever!!!,,,

If I'm sad what will I do?

That's so simple!

I'll just listen to some music

or....

Watch some movie!

But I pick music as my first heart repair!

But don't get me wrong!

I'm not like some other people

that listen to Rock

or

Some hardcore Music!

I'll listen to some happy+sad song together!

It's more effect on me than other music!

Well, what can I say?

If music is dead!

The world will end with it too!!!!!

Soooooooo!

Listen to as many music as you guys can!!!!

What can I do or what will I do?,,,

My life after you

is just like

A Death that hunt...

A hunt that never stops...

I know my reason....

My reason for loving you.....

Now I'm sorry....

Sorry for everything....

I can't give you my heart...

Not yet....

But believe me in this....

You have a place in my heart....

It always will be....

But I can't let you in....

Because I know that...

It's not fair for you....

Now...

To my first....

Thanks for being in my life...

Just this once....

You have already let me know...

What is.

.

.

.

Love....

With all that I'll give you....

I hope that you'll get it....

But not as a person I love...

But as a friend that I hope we can still be....

I'll always share my love with everyone....

I'll try my best for getting myself

with everyone....

I know that I'm not alone...

Because I still have my love one...

My friends...

And my family...

I'll always know that

there will be a good ending

in every story...

Even if someone might need to

give out more then that person can...

Last thing for everyone...

Don't keep everything to yourself....

Try to talk with someone....

Try to make yourself better by not

hurting yourself or anyone!